WONDERFUL THURSDAY

Wonderful Thursday!! Another unexpectation!! I'm too easy to be happy by little thing :D Anyway it feels good to have something to look foward to!! :) Just let it happen!! I can't wait for it!! :)

WTF FABIO CAPELLO!!

I haven't been up to the football news for a long time coz I don't have time to watch the games and I don't have sport channels at home anymore. But sometimes I do still read the newspaper and keep myself updated.

Owen was snubbed by the England national team manger Fabio Capello and the newspaper writes things like "Owen's future looks bleak". As a fan of Owen, it is really upset to see this England hero being treated like this. He's never let England down. Never will!! This is a standard management technique - write off a player's chances if only to impose your authority on the team. Mclaren did it with Beckham too! Owen was and still is a fine player!! I think Capello is totally non sense!!

HAPPY & SURPRISING FRIDAY

What a surprise!! It brightened my day!! Was it a dream? I still can't believe it!! That's why I like surprise coz you feel extra happy with what you have never expected!! :)

CHRIS & CHARLY ARE BACK!!

Chris and Charly are back!! After 3 more months adventure in Asia and finally they are back to Hong Kong!! We had dinner together with Kayin, Janet and Nabil. It was great to see them again!!

Chris wanted to eat Japanese food and I knew it!! I think he can't live without sushi!! :D They talked about their adventure and it sounded very interesting. They told me that they didn't need much money and I was surprised that they spent so few in a day!! It's relly that cheap in Asia??

I envy them so much and I wanna have my own adventure soon!! But not in Asia :D I prefer Europe more!! Gotta save more money!!

FRENCH TEST

Got French test tonight but I didn't have time to study coz I have been very busy. We can't be promoted to next level if we are failed. I don't have any expection coz I know I can't pass!! I feel so frustrated after doing the test coz it was sooooo difficult!! I think I gotta retake Level 10 :( How to improve my French??

MY COLLEAGUE

My colleague has asked me out for dinner many times but actually I'm not so keen on it coz I don't like to be so close with my colleagues. I think it's different between friends and workmates. I can have fun and laugh and do some silly things with my friends but I won't act like that when I'm at work. I'm not acting cool or something it's just I think it's better seperate work and private life.

I had dinner with her after work and she looked happy to have my company. I know she has been upset and stressed becoz of her manager and she wanted to quit the job. She needed someone to talk to and I understand her situation. But I can't do anything to help her.

It's easy to have conflicts at work and I don't think I can make a just decision if I'm too close with my colleagues. So I try to stay away with them and I don't want to mix my work life to my private life. I do have good friends that who were my colleagues but work is work, it's lucky if you can find real friends at work but it is not a necessary.

POSITIVE SUPPORT

I've been so busy recently and finally I had time to have dinner with my old friend. I haven't seen her for few months, it was good to come out for dinner and update each other's recently lives.

She complained that her life was as routine and boring as usual coz she doesn't have much things to do after work excepting watching TV at home. But I complained that my life was a bit boring too. She was amazed that I felt boring coz in her eyes, my life is very busy and full of fun. It's hard to express how I feel bored, I feel like I miss something in my life and I just want to have a change or something. I keep myself busy coz I'm easy to feel bored if I don't have anything to do.

I told her that what I wanted to do and I'm glad that she had a positive mind. She supported me and it made me feel great. But the only thing that she didn't appreciate is that I'm still running away from the problem and not facing it. I know I shouldn't be like that but I really don't know what I can do. I just need some more time...

SICK LEAVE

I had bad cough that I felt like I was half dead. I don't know why it's getting worse since I've been on medication. I did nothing at home except sleeping and surfing internet. But it's good that I have a long weekend. A bit worried about my work but I should worry about my health more. It reminds me of what I was infected before! Never again please!! I wanna get well soon!!

MONKEY IN OX YEAR [2]

Seems like Monkey will have a good year in 2009!! I really hope that everything will go well for me especially career and money!! I have to fulfill my target in this year and it's very important for me!! I have confidence for my job performance but I think I need to be more concentrate on it. And I want to figure out something and solve the problem as soon as I can. Have a good start of year ox!!!! And I can predict that I will have a busy happy year ox!! :)

MADE UP MY MIND

Life is full of decision making and I've been struggling on something that I want to do but I hesitate to do. Finally I made up my mind coz I don't want to be regret in the future. It's good to make a decision and set my target so I can try to work it out gradually. It will be a great challenge for me!! I still have time to prepare and I'm a little excited about it!!

So for this year I have a lot to fulfill!! I like my idea and my motto!! Don't think just do it!! (Tho I've been thinking for a long while :P) I'm going to bet everything on it!!

BEIJING CLUB

Kinda moody recently... I know I shouldn't be affected by anything/anyone easily but I just can't help myself. I'm tired of waiting and guessing what will happen next. It's really frustrating when things aren't under my control. But I think I'm getting better on handling this kinda stuff and I know how to distract myself.

So we went to Beijing Club tonight coz we all just wanted to have some fun. I don't usually go clubbing on Fri coz I don't like to go after a long busy day work. But why should I withhold myself for having fun? I didn't care if it was Friday!!

We went there at around 1am and surprising there were quite a lot of people!! I didn't expect it would be so crowded on Fri!! We drank and danced until 4.30am and it was very fun!! I enjoyed the music and the atmosphere and I'm glad that I could forget everything and enjoyed myself at that moment!!

MY SIXTH SENSE

I don't really like to wait and being in a passive situation. I believe my sixth sense and it depresses me to think that something is going to happen again eventho I don't want to. Shouldn't I care of it?

Someone said that I was lack of confidence and since then I'm trying hard to be more confident in myself. It's not that I have a feeling of inferiority but I'm just not certain of my ability. Sometimes it's easy to think toward to bad way when things aren't going well with what I expected. I don't have confidence to remain unchanged or to change it. It is either you choose or you are being chose. Maybe I shouldn't take things so serious or maybe I should have a little faith on it?

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS

It's 2009 already!! So fast!! 2008 was quite a good year for me. I can't say many good things happened on me but at least nothing really bad.

Tho I have been so busy at work, I work so hard and I got some luck. My boss and manager trust me and appreciate my performance so I got in charge in many thngs and it's a challenge for me.

I have travelled 3 times last year which I didn't expect. It was so great and I enjoyed a lot. Hopefully this year I can travel more too. And I learned some new things and made new friends. It was a great fun to do and meet something new!!

My new year resolutions are quite the same with last year so this year I'm not going to make a long list. 3 is enough!!! I just want to stay healthy, work less and do whatever I want!!

IS THAT ALL MY FAULT?

My manager admonished me 3 times today but she rarely acted like this. I think she must be stressed out recently. But I'm not happy what she said to me.

The 1st thing was that I let the other colleagues to take the free samples during office hour. I didn't let them to do this, I told them to take later but they were too excited and they didn't listen to me. So is that my fault for not being harsh to them?

The 2nd thing was that I talked too long private calls today. It wasn't too long!!! Hey today is new year eve!! Everyone is in holiday mood and what's the problem for just talking on few calls?? I didn't stop working!! She said that as a senior, I should be a good example to the others. I don't think I have ever set a bad example.

The 3rd thing really pissed me off. She admonished about my arrival time again!! I usually come to work 1-3 mins before 9am but she thinks I'm late and requested me to come to work at least 15mins before. WTF!! I'm not late at all!! What da heck is that I have be accused for being late?? I always work overtime (no paid!!) until 7 to 8pm, is that meaningless to the company? I was so angry and it upset me by being scolded at the end of the year. Darn company!!! Darn rules!!! I think they don't have anything to challange me on my working performance so they just did something nonsense to defeat me!!

BAD OMEN?!

I'm not a superstitious person but what happened on me recently really frustrated me. My necklace was broken, my new cup was broken and my favourite mobile belt was broken too. What a bad omen :( What is it going to be next? Hey it's year end already!! I want something good for year 2009!!! Give me some luck please!!

TO KNOW OR NOT TO KNOW?

Sometimes its better not to know than getting to know something you don't want to know. It's complicated,huh? But you can't control when it comes to you. Life is like that and you still have to go on.

Anyway no matter how it is, it's not important anymore. You are only an outsider. Everyone is changing eventually, you may not realize on small things but you do realize someone you care about. Or you change youself for someone but you don't even know you have changed. So that's the interrelationship?

MY BIRTHDAY

Time flies! It's my birthday again!! I wasn't looking forward to my birthday at all. The more I've grown up, the more I prefer a quiet birthday. Just don't wanna remind myself how old I am. I wanna stay young!!

I've been thinking to buy something for myself but I haven't had time to shop around. And I don't really have any special birthday wishes. I have a lot of wishes normally :D Well just hope that I can do what I want and get I want to get. At least no need to worry about anything and no more hestitation!!

MY SISTER IS MOVING OUT

My sister is going back to university from this month. I'm so happy and proud of her coz she did it! She applied to live in the hall as well but I thought she wouldn't get approved coz our home is not far from the university. But today she got the notification and she said she was going to move in there on the coming Monday.

I have mixed feelings coz I really don't want her to move out. It's not that I'm jealous of her but I'm sure I'm going to miss her coz we have been living together since she was born. When we grow up, we will live apart but seems this day is coming too soon. She is no more my little sister who depends on the family, she has really grown up and is independent now. Maybe I'm the only one who don't want to grow up :D

FRENCH TEST

Got French test again!! This time I have to get pass in order to promote to the next level. I take so serious on the test but this semister really sucks!! I didn't really pay attention in the class and I often skipped the lessons... It's hard for me to catch up what I learned before...

We all cheated in the class :P It's shameful but we got no choice LOL I swear to god that I will spend more time on studying!! No more cheating!! :D Maybe I should consider giving up something... otherwise I can't manage all the things well...

SWAZILAND

I have been sick for more than a week already... Still can't eat much... I feel so weak and hungry... Just read a ridiculous news today and it touches my heart coz I know how it feels when you feel hunger. I can hardly imagine that the poverty gap can be like that in this world.

"Swaziland on Saturday held celebrations for King Mswati's 40th birthday and the country's 40th year of independence -- The so-called 40-40 party was preceded by demonstrations against its excessive cost — officially put at US$2.5 million, but widely believed to be at least five times more — in a country where 70 percent live below the poverty line. While the King has luxurious lifestyle, the people rising at dawn to collect firewood, making the trek to the river for water and scraping together a meager meal..."

I know some Africa countries are very poor but I didn't know some people could have such lavish birthday celebrations when other people starve to death. Then what is the meaning for the charities to donate money to the poor if the country has US$2.5 million to spend?